Nov
23
2004
As you may know, my ex was staying here (for a couple of weeks that stretched out to three fucking MONTHS) after some major surgery last summer. A month ago, I told him it was time to leave, gave him $60 and drove him to the beach. He’s got real problems with taking care of [...]
Oct
21
2004
I mean, why would anyone keep visiting this site, when there’s nothing new to see, right? Heck, I only come here to check my blogroll sites. So I’m writing this to myself.
In case I forget.
I never could write when people were around, even when they’re in the next room, unless it’s Robby. He doesn’t count [...]
Sep
16
2004
We drove to L.A. this morning to visit an old friend. L.A. was fun but I forget why. And here’s why I forget:
I had just dropped off to a nice sleep after the long drive when I was awakened by a loud POP! around midnight. Robby ran out of his room–someone had set fire to [...]
Aug
31
2004
Before I discuss the current strangeness in my own life, I would just like to say how happy I am to learn that dooce is back home after some tough times. I have never been so emotionally involved in another blogger’s life. I really care about that little family, and I’m very glad that Heather [...]
Aug
17
2004
Now that I finally have a car, I find myself getting lost on purpose more and more. Robby or his dad ask me for a ride somewhere, to visit a girlfriend or an emergency room, and I am left with nothing to do except drive after I’ve dropped off my passenger. So I’ve begun to [...]
Aug
08
2004
Rusty’s on his best behavior so that’s good. He’s mostly staying in Robby’s room watching TV and giving himself insulin shots, and going out on the front steps to smoke. He just cleaned the trash and soda cans out of Robby’s room, which was nice, but then he took it out to the dumpster. And [...]
Aug
07
2004
I am about to go pick up my ex and bring him here to stay for a couple of days while we find him a shelter or someplace better than the streets of El Cajon. Why? because he had his pancreas, half of his stomach and several feet of intestine removed three weeks ago while [...]
Jul
23
2004
So yesterday, I swore to myself that I would do yoga first for my poor, aching back, and then I would print and mail Bob’s Book, a manuscript I should have finished typing a long time ago for my best friend’s father whose health is failing and who just wants to see his book in [...]
Jul
16
2004
Sunday, 7/11/04, 9:34 am –
I think I’ve finally solved the puzzle that was blocking me from writing “Dotty’s Diner”. I didn’t know what the problem was, or how to write a complete story while staying true to the facts. I mean, what does our heroine [me] learn–how does she change? I’d thought that it was [...]
Jul
06
2004
I had nothing to say an hour ago. I was bored, depressed, overwhelmed, exhausted–that about covered it. Oh yeah: disgusted with myself. Don’t forget that.
That’s how I was feeling this morning when the phone rang. It was Nicole, my former landlady of 18 days. She invited me to go to a hot spring somewhere out [...]
Jul
02
2004
Well, it didn’t work out. I spent a total of 18 days out in the clean air and quiet, and loved every minute, but I had to leave and come back to this tiny apartment in the city.
It’s a long story. I’m not happy about it. I don’t have the heart to explain it [...]
Apr
29
2004
…is over.
In the last four weeks, I’ve gone through more money than I want to tell you. Of course, the lion’s share of it was for the Volvo, paying off debts and buying necessary equipment to control our allergies and Robby’s asthma. Still, it was a jolt to realize how quickly the money can [...]
Apr
08
2004
My new Volvo’s ventilation system is still offgassing the burnt plastic smell that new electronic equipment always has. I was sick all weekend from that and the test drive of a detailed car on Thursday. Finally figured out how to turn off the fan, so it’s fine now. I won’t like it much in hot [...]
Apr
05
2004
I got approved for disability last month, and just got the first check for two years of back payments.
Wow.
Friday, I bought a car. It’s so nice not to have to deal with the bus any more–now I can go anywhere I want, whenever I want. I took Robby and his girlfriend, Emily, shopping [...]
Apr
05
2004
Never mind. I can’t do it. I was going to dump this blog and all the archives but then I began browsing some of the wonderful quotes I’ve found over the past three-plus years, and that led to other entries, and I just can’t do it.
There was a time when I got 100 or [...]