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A useless talent

Sometimes I have prophetic dreams. I discovered this years ago when I dreamed that my mother was being carried down our steps on a stretcher. Less than twelve hours later, I watched that exact scene played out in real life after Mom had a stroke. It was startling to say the least.
But usually, my little [...]

Lonely people

I graduated from physical therapy yesterday. Not that my back pain is all gone but it’s better, and I can do most of the exercises at home to keep it that way. I was sad to say goodbye to Andrea and Shannon, my therapists, and just as much to Alvarado Hospital’s rehabilitation wing. Several years [...]

A mother’s nightmare

I dreamed last night that I got arrested. I can’t remember what I did wrong, but it was for some minor offense, probably traffic-related. Robby was with me but he was a little kid again, five or six years old–and he looked like his older brother, Chris, when he was that age, so cute and [...]

The Joy of Blogging

I think I’ve figured out my blogger’s block, which has been going on for like, ages–years, really.
The truth is that I didn’t want to bore anyone with incessant whining about my health, which was all I could think about at the time, a sure giveaway to my true age, which I was convinced would [...]

Self realization is a bitch

So I’m blogging again. I told you it wouldn’t last.
I drove up to Santa Cruz last week to dog-sit for my good friend [and alternative everything mentor], Nakedjen, while she and her husband made their annual pilgrimage to the Oregon Country Fair.
It was sooo nice. Santa Cruz is gorgeous, Jen’s house is lovely, [...]

Change in the wind

My life has a habit of turning upside down periodically. I feel like I’ve led several different lives in these almost-sixty years, and I’m about to enter another one. It’s scary-exciting, but mostly exciting.
One son is moving here with his wife from two thousand miles away. The other son is moving two thousand miles [...]

My molester

As molesting scenes go, it was fairly innocuous.
I was eleven, with barely budding bosoms, swimming at Crystal Lake with some girls I had found there, while Mom napped in the car not far away. This had gotten to be an almost-daily routine for us in the summer, a way for me to get out [...]

Memory lane

In the interest of providing you with SOMETHING to read despite my massive writer’s block, I give you an old journal entry…
Monday, Oct. 11, 2004 — afternoon of housesitting at Nicole’s
I’ve spent most of the day out here on the porch, eating, reading and napping. It’s a glorious fall day, sunny and warm, dry and [...]

What losing weight really means

Day Five
At least half of the battle, when you stop stuffing your face with carbs, sugar–and in my case, gluten–is figuring out what to do with all the time that suddenly looms before you. People who don’t have this problem will not understand, but it feels like waking up from a lovely dream to realize [...]

[WARNING: BORING MEDICAL DETAILS AHEAD]
I finally called the doctor and made an appointment a couple of weeks ago, after scaring myself at the post office. Nothing big, I just had a sudden, raging thirst and absolutely KNEW that I had to get home for a drink of water IMMEDIATELY.
I suppose I could have stopped [...]

Foodaholic

It’s all crap. I feel like crap and I look like crap. Yesterday after Christmas dinner, I farted FOUR freaking times in front of the in-laws [Robby's girlfriend's parents, might as well call 'em in-laws, they will be soon enough.] We all made a joke of it but I was very embarrassed, of course, because [...]

I was unloading the dishwasher just now, long before necessary to make room for what used to be an overflowing sinkful of dirty dishes–a completely new concept around here–when it occurred to me that I should be blogging about this alien territory I have recently discovered: Clean Kitchenland.
I don’t know why I thought it [...]

Sorry for the constantly changing design around here. I love the layout but can’t seem to decide on a color scheme or graphics that I like. It’ll settle down eventually… until I get sick of it again. Maybe I’ll change the colors according to the season and holiday. A Thanksgiving theme would be nice right [...]

What to blog about

I’ve been spinning my wheels for weeks now, fruitlessly trying to figure out how to make money at blogging. I’ve been searching the web for a solution to the one puzzle no one can solve but me: what should I blog about? All the rest is easy. There’s no mystery about it: you put your [...]

Blogging yoga

There’s nothing like unremitting pain to motivate you to do what’s good for you. Or not. My chronic pain over the years has led me to do the opposite–that is, sitting and lying around waiting for the pain to go away. Which, of course, just makes it worse. Duh.
I need to get motivated. I [...]

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