Bornfamous

I think I’ve figured out my blogger’s block, which has been going on for like, ages–years, really.

The truth is that I didn’t want to bore anyone with incessant whining about my health, which was all I could think about at the time, a sure giveaway to my true age, which I was convinced would turn every last reader away, because I was absolutely certain that everyone who reads blogs is under forty [or at least under fifty] and therefore allergic to anyone over fifty–like me. I thought I was all adjusted to the idea of getting old but apparently not. So let me set the record straight: in a little over two weeks, I will be sixty. Sixty!

There, I said it. I feel much better now.

The other part of this blogger’s block equation is that I got caught up in the whole Adsense thing. I wanted to make money blogging, so I thought I had to write about subjects that would attract more traffic. But the more obsessed I became about blogging for dollars, the less I wanted to blog, because I didn’t feel that I could be me any more.

All the fun went out of it.

And that’s what blogging used to be all about: fun–no, JOY. Posting my “Morning Pages” entry every morning, visiting and commenting on my favorite blogs, the surprise of getting comments from some of them in return, finding friends thousands of miles–sometimes half a globe–away. It was a joyful experience, and I miss it.

Not that it’s not going on right now, all over the blogosphere. Thousands of bloggers are creating and finding communities and friendships all the time. [Like Dr. Frankenstein said: "It's alive! It's alive!"] I’m just not a part of it any more. In what has become known as the natural lifecycle of blogging, I have let this place go–and I want to try again.

So. I may bore you with endless details about my aches and pains. More likely, I will bore you TO DEATH talking about chemicals and what the corporate devils are doing to us in the name of profits. But that’s okay, because I don’t need traffic any more. I got rid of all those pesky Adsense ads.

Not that I don’t like traffic, good heavens! Feel free to visit any time. As for me, I expect to get back to my Morning Pages in the morning.

See you then.